Sometimes things just don't turn out the way you want them to.
Sometimes no matter how hard you try, regardless of how much you want to change, things just simply won't work.
Sometimes it's better to forget about the whole darn thing and pretend it never existed.
Sometimes it's tiring to hold on and cling onto something you know deep down that it's gonna be impossible.
Sometimes it's better to give up than go on being stubborn and put on a fake pretence that everything's okay, when actually it's the direct opposite of that.
Sometimes I wonder what on earth is my purpose in life and the reason why am I even living.
Sometimes I wished I would fall into a deep slumber and never wake up- ever.
But it really pisses the shit outta me to choose to escape from reality instead of facing it. Perhaps someday, one day, I'll get the courage and strength to stare back at the realities of life and spit in its face and go all "So what else have you got in stall for me? Anything tougher? Cause it aint even making me flinch a single bit, dude" Then I'll be damn smug and smirk and give the evil laughter. Hah. As if such a thing will happen. Oh well. I suppose it does- if you never stop believing.
10:21:00 PM
Caught Norbit at Orchard Cineleisure today with BIG PIG! NC16 but I got in! xP The movie was hilarious!
And after the show, the two of us played "现在不准笑" plus can't say any sentence containing "你我他"! FUN FUN! (:
大猪：“为什么和尚头上有六个点？”
小猪：“因为他上辈子是颗DICE！”
10:52:00 PM
如果真的很不幸的有那么一天，你再也不能陪在我身边，我想我应该会很不习惯吧。不晓得自己是否算是个悲观的人，因为不论面对什么事，我总是会往坏的方面打算。是内心深处所缺乏的安全感在作祟吗？或许吧！我也常想，“It’s better to be prepared for the worst, lest it causes too hard an impact on you and catch you unaware, when you’re at the lowest point of time in your life. Besides, there’s no harm in thinking negatively if that’s to prevent yourself from a major undesired misfortune in the future, right?”
假如不堪设想的事发生了，我想我会试着以一颗平常心去面对，坦然的接受，让这段美好的回忆画下一个完美的句点。毕竟，该放手的时候，再怎么挽回、强求也是于事无补的，不是吗？我会微笑着默默给你祝福。只要你幸福，就好。
11:40:00 PM
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and she saw everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote her a letter, saying:"Just take care of my eyes, dear."
11:39:00 PM
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY PEOPLE! (:
I love the ferrero rochers from my BIG TREE!
I love the chocolates from Lynn, Siewhui, Weiliang, Minghui.
I love the belgian chocolates from my angel Cherie.
I love the orange daisy flower from Pearlyn.
I love the cute little piece of note from Rachel.
Oh, valentines' aint that bad afterall! Haha.
I'M FEELING VERY LOVED! xD
11:57:00 PM
Today's another day out with shanshan! Woo~ Realised it's been awhile since we went towning cause of my common tests. Oh and I'm super happy that we both got A1 for the Chinese O levels! Thank God. Thank ourselves. (: As for those who didn't do that well, don't give up! Get going and set a target for yourselves. AND MOVE IT! Stop slacking and get cracking! Let's all study hard and graduate with flying rainbows! ^^
Anyway. Back to today's outing. Haha. Bugis again, walked the same places, saw the usual stuff. Bought things on impulse, without really thinking much. And I kinda regret giving the old twenty dollar note away. ):
Nevermind! We shall all observe one minute of silence in memory of the $20 buck. Farewell... I must not grieve any further!
After Bugis was Dhoby Ghaut. Went to This Fashion. And being the super damn stupid and clumsy me, I GOT STUCK WITH THIS BANGLE THING! I was like 'Oh my god... What the hell man!' Haha. Thought I had a really skinny arm and fitted the damn ugly black flower bangle thing right up to my elbow and beyond. In the end, guess what? I COULDN'T GET THE ****ING IRRITATING HIDEOUS THING OFF! >.<
Aha. Made a fool of myself. Tried to pull my skin to let the thing slide pass it. Tried to force the thing off by tugging freaking hard at it. Tried pulling my hand while shanshan pulled at the bangle. But. TO NO AVAIL. None worked and for that moment, I was like... Shit, I'm gonna get stuck to this ugly thing for the rest of my life! T.T
LUCKILY LUCKILY! We finally managed to get it off one way or the other! HAHAHA. The both of us were like laughing damn hard during the whole process! I GOT RID OF THE 'CURSE'! (:
And we went all sadist and laughing like crazy during the train ride home! I SO LOVE MY LES PARTNER! For life! xD
Oh whatever. I'm not gonna wait around stupidly like an idiot
any longer. Do as you deem fit. See if I give a fucking damn.
11:54:00 PM
OH NO. THE ANTICIPATION IS KILLING ME! GETTING THE O LEVELS CHINESE RESULTS TOMORROW. *wails; moans; sighs* PLEASE. DONT LET IT BE A MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT FOR ME.
I'm trying to stay positive and remain calm and collected. TRYING! =X
12:30:00 AM
原来只要一句来自好友的鼓励能够令人倍感窝心。甚至有些小小的莫名感动。
谢啦，莉珊! 我会好好加油的! (:
6:56:00 PM
什么是坚持
怎么算强求
我可以坚持
但不一定快乐
我不能快乐
因为我在强求
我还是坚持
我有点不快乐
我记得曾经怎么快乐
我想要快乐
我没有强求
我只是坚持
5:46:00 PM
尽管也许要寻觅许多许多年，
尽管也许要得流很多很多泪，
尽管也许不完美，
我也要好好深深狠狠的爱一回。
(:
5:39:00 PM
Alright. Something is officially bugging me loads. And I think I know what that is. But there's not much desire for me to confront that irritating thing. Aye, guess it's just typical of me to escape from reality and not face it. HA HA HA.
I am an ostrich, watch me bury my head in the sand~
11:28:00 AM
时钟墙上有个可爱的钟，滴滴答答不停不歇的钟。不停不歇，却也不慌不忙，它以一种稳定的速度往前走着。真的是活在当下的钟啊！每一分每一秒，它都走在“现在”的刻度上。时时刻刻活在当下，就是这只钟如此轻快的原因吧。
若要和这只钟一样轻快，其实也就应该像它一样，时时刻刻凝视着“现在”。
快乐的秘诀之一，在于想着现在的你“正在”拥有的，而不是想着过去的你“曾经”拥有的，和未来的你“可能”拥有的。
抬头看看墙上的钟，也低头看看现在的自己，并且感谢此刻所拥有的一切。只是“现在的自己比五分钟以后的自己更年轻”这一点，就已是千金难买的财富了呢！
11:05:00 AM
日历从睡梦中醒来，短暂的迷糊之后，很快又清醒地想起，那些昨天曾经说错的话，做错的事。 也许只是小小地做错事，说错话，但因为你不断的回想它，不断的以你的不安喂养它，它就从一只小蚂蚁被你养成了大怪兽。
其实，谁都会偶尔犯一些无关紧要的小错误啊！所以，不要太苛责自己了，对自己的小错误如此耿耿于怀，不觉得是对自己的一种虐待吗？
从沮丧的床褥间起来，走到墙边，用力撕去一页日历吧！
昨天已经过期了，今天正新鲜，就别让早就过去的事情腐坏乐自己现在的心情! (:
11:04:00 AM
I am pissed off. Oh what the hell. I must be suffering from total insanity. Cause there's no apparent reason for me to feel this way! And I just snapped some not-very-nice comments at him. ARGH. Somebody just shoot me please.
2:49:00 PM
Received this email from a friend. Found it quite meaningful...
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started
going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me
do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who
still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, "What if
I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the
floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still
wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a
very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it
because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our
lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we
make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are
worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never
lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still
priceless to those who do LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we
do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special- Don't
EVER forget it."
11:42:00 AM
'JUNE Seventeen year old gemini with random hyperactivity. Loves ambiguity, oxymorons, quotes and the beauty of words. Laming is her forte. Has absolutely no concept about time. Fetish for sexy ears and rabbit teeth. Wants to go on a globe trotting adventure. Can never resist food, especially potato, tofu and eggs. A sucker for rainy days.
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